At this exact moment, I am 27 weeks and 5 days pregnant. Before getting pregnant, I had so many ideas of what it would be like. Unfortunately, none of them were really positive. I’ve gone through pregnancy with some of my cousins and sister in law. For some reason, I thought I knew what it would it be like based on their experiences.
I thought I would just walk around for 9 months being fat, grouchy while eating everything. I couldn’t drink or do anything I was used to doing. In addition to the fact that I would be tired all of the time. It seemed like much fun. Boy was I wrong!
Here are 4 things I’ve learned about myself since I got a plus sign on the pregnancy test.
1. Having a big belly isn’t that bad. Before getting pregnant, I was a health maniac. I spent 5 or 6 days in the gym for at least an hour working with weights and cardio. I didn’t eat anything fried and you couldn’t pay me one million dollars to drink something that had calories (unless it was going to get me intoxicated.). But since getting pregnant I’ve learned to embrace my weight gain and new belly. Yes please to the French fries and fried fish. I love catching my side profile of my big round belly in the mirror. I always stop, rub it, talk to him, and smile. I’ve never been happier to gain weight in my life.
2. I’m not as addicted to wine as I thought I was. Prior to getting pregnant, I made it my business to keep at least one bottle of wine on my bar cart. Having at least a glass a day was kind of part of my ritual. I had this idea that it was necessary for me to drink wine while I cooked, while sewing, or on the days that my fiancé and I made it a Netflix night. It didn’t really matter the occasion to be quite honest. I had every excuse in the book to enjoy a glass a day. Now, that I can’t have it, I don’t miss it. After finding out I was pregnant, it was one of the first things I thought I would miss the most. But during the time I’ve been pregnant, I have been in lots of different scenarios where everyone is drinking. Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years; to name a few. You better believe that everyone around me was drinking. I’ll admit, I was worried that I was gonna miss it but I didn’t. I enjoyed myself just as much as I do any other time. Plus, it really gave me a chance to sit back and recognize some things that were going on around me. Things that I would have never noticed had I been drinking. Being sober when everyone else isn’t has been very, very eye-opening.
3. He loves me, he really loves me. I grew up not knowing a damn thing about my Dad. All I knew about him is what he looked like and that he was a liar. (He proved himself to be that when I got a bit older, but that’s a whole ‘nother story.) But being raised by a single mom put a fear in me that was always there and grew even more as I got older. The fear was that I would tell my fiancé that I was pregnant and he would suddenly fall out of love with me and leave. He never gave me any indication of that. My fear was so strong that I actually prepared myself for it when I told him that I was pregnant. But when I received a completely opposite response I was floored. Completely shocked and felt unbelievably loved. I mean, I’ve always felt loved, cherished, and respected by him. But being pregnant has shown me just how much he really and truly loves me. It has also helped me to accept that fact that I actually deserved the love he was giving me. I really thought that my issues of being left by my birth father were behind me. It really kind of surprised me how it came back after finding out that I was pregnant. But to see that the father of my baby is completely opposite of how my dad was. To see how protective he is of his son who hasn’t even gotten here yet fills my heart in a whole ‘other way. He has no idea how much he helped me through my daddy issues. I’m truly grateful.
4. I have more patience than I realized. Anyone who knows me, knows just how impatient I really am. I don’t like waiting for people. I like an immediate response when I ask questions. I get anxious when planning things far out because I don’t like waiting to see how things go. It’s bad. But….pregnancy has taught me patience. I couldn’t do anything about the throwing up I was happening every morning while brushing my teeth in the first trimester. The heartburn that shows up in the middle of the night is just something that I have to go though. Plus, there is no way to rush these 9 months. I can only sit back and enjoy it. And I’ve grown to be to be perfectly okay with it.
Tomorrow is the first month in my final trimester. And I can’t even explain to you how excited and emotional I am to meet my son. It’s so bad that I spend time in the shower talking to him and crying. This has truly been the most exciting time of my life. Feels like I just got the best job I’ve ever has. Being a mom. Can’t wait to introduce him to you!
What about you? Learn anything while you were pregnant? What was your experience like? Please share with me in the comments…
Stay Fearless 💋